And Thou Shalt Read

It was a smaller class tonight, chalk that one up to the snow, but it was a lot of intimate and friendly.

We did work with our texts tonight, which was good because I needed it. I don’t think I’d ever really spoken my text out loud, nevertheless to somebody.

I will admit that I had a hard time finding willing partners this class. I am going to assume that is because my text is in a different language. At least I hope that’s what it was (I don’t smell do I?).
First we got into partners (mine was a group of three) and we just read our own texts to the other people. That was all fine and dandy.

Then we had other people read our texts. Oh boy. To the guy to who read mine, it was a good try, but it was so hard to listen to (SORRY). I’m sure an Italian would tell me I was butchering the language, but from my understanding of how to say it, you were far away. So sorry again.

The next step (I think) was to have someone read it as we say. So like, saying it together. It was an interesting little exercise. The guy I was with did really well, but maybe my voice was masking his, haha. I think he actually started to get the pronunciation towards the end.

Then we had people repeat our texts. We would read a little bit and see if they could repeat. This was hilarious. I didn’t know how much I should read (hello, it’s in Italian) so I read half a line or so. It was so funny when my partner couldn’t say it! She just started making things up and it was great. I hope she found it as funny as I did. When she read me her text, I didn’t get what it was about until about halfway through, haha. She was talking about barrel racing with horses and I was thinking like, barrel racing on a river. I guess that’s called log rolling, but that’s what I thought of and nothing she was saying made any sense to me.

It was uber hard to read this my text as fast as I can. I can speak fairly fast when I know what I am saying but I simply did not know my text well enough to do that. I also get confused sometimes because a phrase is repeated so often that sometimes I just forget or skip parts. But I am getting better. I hope.

When we went into full open vibration at the beginning of class, Raymon told us to lay our text on the vibration and fill the room. I don’t understand this. I couldn’t wrap my head around how to do it and I still can’t figure it out. It was like really loud, breathy monotone and I couldn’t do it. It’s hard for me to read my text without emotion, and I just felt like a failure; inadequate.